Weeknotes 09×05: Screeeeech. Focus focus focus.

Screenshot of a burnt-out Mini from Dirt Rally game

  • After the momentum of drift-slides and gravel over-steer last week, I think this week’s notes are about pressure and speed. Burnout is on my mind a lot, as we head into the dark seasons and hibernation time. Natural rhythms are coming under stress, on many people’s personal level, all the way up to global and social levels. There are some notes on what I’ve actually been doing too, towards the end. One day I’ll read all this back to myself and laugh.

  • 5.30am is not a great time to get woken up at to start the week. My mind is full of dreamed-up fog before I’m out of bed, and every item of furniture hallucinates itself into a pillow. Over coffee, I clear out some menial tasks – checking out a start date, clearing obvious emails, stuff that sits on the brain and . I have enough energy to pick out some small steps to lift pressure this week a bit – getting off Slack, reducing meetings, cutting non-essential comms basically (the introvert head needs some headspace right now) – so the first (ok, second) email of the day jots those down and lets the rest of management know. Got to get some sustainability back.

  • I also jot down my aims and key tasks for the week, which is something I do when I have time, something which is most useful when I’m pushed for time, and something that I haven’t done in ages because I haven’t had time/energy. It’s never a complete task, but it acts as a reference guide, map and compass, as the week fires up and gets confusing quickly. I should really stick to this practice much, much more. Maybe there should be some sort of weeknotes support group for getting weekly aims together?

  • Looking back now, the week seems long and short at the same time. Monday feels like worlds away. But everything has happened at breakneck speed. Friday didn’t feel like the end of the week. Thursday was at the beginning, middle and end.

  • Turning off Slack for a day on Monday was fantastic – I really noticed the difference afterwards, and my mind felt focused and more… complete? Everyone (or developers, at least) knows mental context-switching is inefficient. Less people understand how tiring it is. And yet, it’s so easy to do – we do it all the time, we’ve been trained to do it through our social services. No wonder depression is increasing – we’re all too knackered from trying to keep up with everything.

  • Working from home on Wednesday was also useful, but I slipped back to a tendency to converse via – and hence check the rest of – Slack. Also had to pick up kids from 3pm, so a bit of a shortened day, which I always find flustered.

  • son2 has been singing a little ditty about the days of the week, which he contracted from nursery. I think it goes to the tune of ‘Oh my darling, Clementine’ and comes with little wavy hand movements: ‘_Monday Tuesday / Wednesday Thursday / Friday Saturday / Sunday too / Every day is a different day / and every day is something new‘. It’s cute and twee and schmaltzy and unoriginal, and it’s keeping me going. Every day is something new.

  • Currently I feel like I’m holding a lot in my head, and new streams are kicking up and spinning off while the old ones are being held in reserve memory, not dumped out or stashed for safe keeping. So I’m burning on adrenaline largely, which has helped to avoid getting the sniffles at least, but is giving me some twinges. The tech strategy work has been on hold for a few weeks, infuriatingly. As has looking at project scheduling, and tying it into our new aims. It’s annoying because we had some momentum coming out of September, and timing is everything. But inevitable because everyone is ill or on holiday and there’s a bucketload of dev work to do.

  • Things that are moving are moving well though. We finally tested and signed off a big upgrade to our mapping tech (not released yet, link for sales purposes only… 😉 that will make it a lot easier to build developments into maps in the future, and cut out a big chunk of the time it takes to deploy new datasets currently. It’s something I’ve wanted to work on for years, and John has been a huge help getting it together.

  • In among all the existing work, we’ve been forced to (finally) upgrade one of our servers to a newer model. This month is the time of replacement, it seems, and work is no exception. It’s a tough call, as we’re working hard on a massive upgrade due next week already, months in the planning, etc. I talk it through with the devs involved after stand-up though, and there’s an overarching feeling that the opportunity is too good to miss. We need to effectively-disable the site for a weekend to do the upgrade, so dovetailing in with the server move seems to fit. It’s extra work, and a gutsy move, but in our techie hearts, we sort of know it makes sense? Everything will be so much cleaner, smoother, faster and more secure afterwards. It will be the promised land. That’s totally the cliffhanger for next week – WILL WE BE IN PARADISE?

  • Unexpectedly, the server move also gives rise to some protracted decisions and conversations about how costs are shared with different people. Like there’s an easy way to work out costs vs actual value (spoiler: there isn’t.) It’s a conversation that’s needed, but … ah, man, so many rabbit holes. I mean, it’s not a big rabbit hole to fall down, it’s a labyrinthine warren ready to devour any wayward tunneler. Needs some careful thought and negotiation, and right now, there are enough plates spinning.

  • So that’s where we are right now. Plates spinning. Head spinning. World carries on spinning, and the storm is coming because it hasn’t rained in ages. TOO MANY STRATEGIES. Need a strategy strategy, etc.

  • What am I doing next week? Focusing, that’s what. Getting through this and getting out the other side. Heads down, lights on. See you there.


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